I mentioned the other day that a good friend gave me a new book recently - SoulPancake. I have been flipping through this book and completing the various exercises and challenges as I go along. The book is meant as a way to inspire you to dig deeper into life's big questions and to help you find your own answers or at least get you a lot closer to understanding your own life philosophies.
One of the first challenges I found difficult was in The Brain and Soul section of the book. Here is the challenge and my answers.
Tell Me Now! List 5 questions you hate not knowing the answers to.
1. Where/who is my soul mate?
2. Will I be a good mother? Should I even have children?
3. What does my future hold?
4. Has anyone ever really loved me? My parents don't count...they have to love me.
5. Is it me?
I found this challenge to be exceptionally difficult. There are so many questions I don't have the answers to. I tried to look dig deep into myself to really understand where I feel the most lost. Clearly, there is a pattern to my answers - insecurity about love being the obvious theme. Armed with this information I am hoping I will be able to identity within myself exactly why I have these insecurities about love. We all have relationships that don't last but I think for me there is something deeper going on in my head. Something I need to address so that my future relationships don't suffer the same fate.
I am finding this book to be a great outlet for my feelings. As someone who has never been comfortable with sharing my feeling - good and bad - this book (and this blog) are giving me a creative outlet to help me work through some of my stuff.