Dating

Those of you who know me or have been reading my blog for a while know that I am single.  My long tern relationship of 4 years ended in October and I decided a couple of months ago it was time to get back in the saddle and start dating again.  For starters, I am employing a little technology to help me in my search.  I have joined some online dating sites to help me find some dates.  I am pretty easy going a friendly person but find it really hard to meet new people in my day to day life.  I have a small circle of awesome friends but they are mostly new to the city and we all know mostly the same people, so there is little opportunity for blind date set-ups. 

I actually don't mind dating that much.  I am not shy and am pretty extroverted so I am able to carry a conversation with someone new fairly easily.  So far I have dated a couple of nice men but no Mr. Right just yet.  While, the actually dating part comes easily for me it is the time between dates, wondering if I should call him, should I wait to call him, is he even gonna call that I hate.  No one likes to be rejected.  And, it seems that most men are too chicken to actually reject you to your face so i find what usually happens is that the emails simply stop coming, the texts dwindle and eventually the relationship just fades away.  It would be so much easier if people were honest about how they felt.  While, I certainly do not like the idea that someone may not think I am as great as I think I am, I would much rather they told me then leave me hanging and wondering. 

The other hard part about dating is that you always have to be the cutest, funniest best version of yourself.  That can be exhausting.  I guess when you meet the right person this process is not so exhausting because you are comfortable enough to be yourself right away.  But, how do you know?

How do you know if you have met Mr. Right?  How do you even know you are in love?  I have had three significant relationships in my life all of which lasted around four years.  At the time I was sure that I was in love and he was the one.  Clearly, I was wrong.  So, again, I ask you, how do you know?  This is the hardest part.  Not knowing.  I don't trust myself anymore to make these decisions because clearly I have been wrong a lot in the past.  I like to think I know what I want in a partner but maybe I am being too selective and not giving guys enough of a chance. 

Well, as I try to figure all this out I will keep you all posted.  Maybe Mr. Right is at the grocery store buying organic veggies as we speak.  Oh, maybe the Farmer's Market is a good place to pick up?  Argh.

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